I’m coming up on 3 weeks since I deactivated my Facebook. And what I’ve found is that I have been less distracted, and more motivated for real connection.
I finally met up with a friend yesterday that I haven’t seen in months.
I reach out, more and more, here on WordPress to people with whom I share the bond of writing. A truly powerful bond, because it is here where many of us lay open our bare souls and put our emotions, our art, on display. These aren’t just words to us of those who write them. They are very much a part of ourselves.
I’ve focused on my spirituality more. I find myself in prayer more often. Desiring connection with the Divine in a more powerful way.
I’m reading more. Inspirational things, blog posts, books. Things that enrich and help me think in new ways without everybody and their mama expressing an opinion about it.
It’s kind of interesting, how hard old habits die. I’ll be reading something, a great article or quote or devotion, and I’ll immediately think of “sharing” it on Facebook. And then I’ll remember that I can’t. And I’ll laugh at myself a little bit because I’m retraining my brain to stop looking for validation out there and find it within. And despite the learning curve, I feel mentally healthier already.
I miss some folks, most definitely. My readership on this blog is down considerably. That has been a hard pill to swallow. It hurt to know so many people only read out of shallow curiosity and not genuine interest.
But, on the flip side, letting go of the more shallow makes room for the true.
It was my birthday yesterday and instead of constant notifications, I received texts, phone calls, and in-person greetings. From people who actually care and didn’t just see my birthday pop up on their newsfeed.
Clinging to and aspiring for deep authenticity, being as true to myself as I can be – this requires a stripping away of the false. Pretense, masks, and shallow relationships have no place here.
I’ve always viewed personal growth as a fire of refinement. For the last month, I feel like that fire has been extra hot. But I’m definitely starting to see the treasure underneath the impurities that continue to fall away.
Facebook served as a large distraction for me for a lot of years. It was an outlet to talk, but not do. To correspond, but not necessarily connect.
In trying to remedy that, part of my goals for these last few weeks and months has been to strip away superficiality in all its forms. Maybe I’m entering into that old lady mentality much earlier than anticipated. The one that doesn’t have time for bullshit. Maybe it’s my wonky thyroid. Maybe my brain is finally just fed up with having “connections” without connection.
Whatever the reason, my absence from Facebook has been more positive than negative. And while it has definitely been a “detox” of sorts, I think I’m already making better use of my time.